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A Look Inside the Story
“Yes, but that gets us back to what I was talking about earlier. There has to be
a hard limit somewhere, where you have this long list of things you are willing
to do if the price is right but at some point, the item on the list is beyond
pricing. No matter if it was all the money in the world, there is some line you
“Common sense, yes I understand now,” said Tonya.
“Maybe common sense, but like I said before, I don’t suck cocks but for the
right amount, I guess I might. All I know is that I wouldn’t want to be put into
a position where I had that kind of decision to make.”
“That wouldn’t bother me,” replied Tonya, “I think I know what I can handle and
what I can’t.”
“Yeah, well maybe you should do it then. I’m just saying that I wouldn’t want to
be put in that position and make those kinds of choices. Tonya, you’ve got a
hell of a future ahead of you, you wouldn’t need to debase yourself like that.
What are you, twenty-two? You look like a million bucks, you’re smart, educated,
you have a good job, you have Mark…”
“Mark is great but, I don’t know… there is something missing there,” signed
“Oh, first I’ve heard that from you, what’s wrong?” inquired James.
“Nothing is… wrong, it is more like
something isn’t right, you know what I mean? There is just something incomplete
about our relationship.”
James pondered what Tonya said and asked, “Are you still living together?”
“Yes, but I don’t know for how much longer. He asked me to marry him.”
“He did? Wow, when did that happen?” exclaimed James.
“About a week ago, I told him I… well, I told him probably.”
“I don’t think probably or maybe is the kind of answer you are supposed to give
to a marriage proposal,” chuckled James, “Anything but yes usually translates to
“I know, but… when he asked me, I was really happy and excited and… I came this
close to saying yes,” declared Tonya, holding her hands in front of her with her
palms facing but not touching. “The thing is, I felt he wasn’t that disappointed
when I wouldn’t commit to it.”
“Hmmm,” signaled James.
“Yeah,” agreed Tonya, “that’s what I meant when I said things weren’t quite
right. Not only did I hesitate, I got the feeling he was relieved when I
James thought for a moment and said, “Putting this my way, you were willing to
play house with Mark, do the things that a married couple does but when he asked
you to marry him, what you would have to give in return to him is a life-long
commitment. That was the part that was beyond your limit.”
Tonya thought for a moment and then nodded at James but she wished that he would
talk more about the slave thing. Although she considered the idea of selling
herself as some kind of sex slave was ridicules, it was a way out of what was
really going on in her life.
She felt a sense of dependency on Mark and she liked that but Mark was too much
like that himself. He was probably
sitting at home right now having kittens wondering where Tonya was, and not
because he worried about her, or wanted her to fix his dinner. He would be freaking out that perhaps
he had been abandoned. Tonya was comfortable being dependent herself, she just
was not comfortable with things the other way around. It was the subconscious
reason why she had never wanted to have pets.